Forgiveness? What does it really mean?

When one asks for forgiveness what does it really mean? And when one forgives what does that mean?

Forgiveness to me is an omission of guilt. Guilt is from the feeling of hurting someone else feelings, right? OR.....doing something "wrong" in the eyes of another.

Well now that I'm on this new road of self discovery, I realize that someone else is not responsible for how I feel anyway, so if someone hurts my feelings, who's fault is it, really? I'm beginning to believe it's mine.

If I fall victim to someone or feel someone has "wronged" me in someway, than it's me feeling bad and feeling lower levels of energy. If I feel "wronged" than it's because I didn't speak MY TRUTH! not that they hurt me.

when you speak your truth there is no such thing as a victim. It wouldn't be allowed. If I allow it, than it's I that should be forgiving myself.

Seeking

I was listening to Zen yesterday morning and I realized how much of my life I'm seeking things. The message I'm receiving is:

Seeking is the damag'er of your physical experience. The process of seeking means your feeling something missing. When you feel the missing of something you're focused on the "not having" so you begin to seek. This process is damaging to your being or essence because, how can you seek what you already have?

You're not lost my child. You are the essence of what you're seeking. Rather than focus on the seeking of what you feel is missing, focus on the feeling of having this missing thing and you'll have it. You see because it's only your perception or awareness of them that brings them into the light for you. they already exist in the here and now.

When you change focus you can see more clearly the truth that you seek.

Thank you!
I feel so blessed to receive messages of love. They are so powerful & I do seek what I feel is missing. I will begin to work on that.

So while practicing this message yesterday afternoon I decided to attempt to "feel" a result of a business transaction that was bothering me and I was again feeling like it wasn't happening. But instead of just thinking about the result I wanted, I "felt" it with my core for about 5Min's. Then I was interrupted by my next appointment...well my phone rang during this appointment but I didn't answer, so as to not be rude.
Upon leaving my appointment I checked my messages and don't-you-know it was the beginning of the result I was looking for. It's amazing how fast that happened. I was smiling from ear to ear with excitement "I did it!!!"

You have to practice this, it's fun. but you can't just "think it" you have to "think and feel it from the core of your being"

Embrace